My Busy Weekend
This weekend i will be going to Reno Nevada for a business convention, but i am really stressed out because i leave on thursday night and won't be attending school on friday. What i am stressing out about is that my senior contract starts on that same day and i dont want to be removed from any senior activities. i've been thinking about it all day and i can't stress out anymore my hair has been falling out so much and my nails are not growing anymore. This school year has been stressing so far and we are still not even halfway of the half way there. I didn't try my best these past three years and i know i can't just make it up by doing good this year but i certainly have a positive mind that any chance i have i will take it regardless. I Don't think someone my age should be going through so much stress, i know other students are stressed out about what colleges they want to go to or can't decided which one to go to in the other hand there you have me looking out for two other brothers who depend on me like if i was their mother i have to make sure they both do homework i have to wake them up hurry them up make sure to take them to school pick them up clean cook and still manage to make time to do my homework and spend time with my boyfriend. I dont mind helping my mom but i guess i just feel pressured to do it since i am the only one in my house who doesn't work. What is worse is that one of my brothers attends my school so every step i take he is carefully watching and i am trying really hard to get him on the right path he started off good but then he just gave up i guess and is failing like three of his classes. I know i am not the best sister but i sure am the one who looks out for them the most i am scared that if one day something happens to me they wouldn't be able to deal without me. It is unexplainable they rely on me for everything every question they have it come towards me even if it is something my mom should be answering. I know my mom is trying to give us the best she can and giving us a better future which is why i am now helping her i joined her business and attend with her to all her meetings it is a little too much on me but im alive and i think i am getting use to it , or i should say used to stress,used not being able to sleep thinking about the next day what i have to do in such little time. i have been listening to classical music while i sleep and it is actually helpful it helps me go to sleep and calm my stress or anxiety.
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